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I have had a lot of people tell me recently that they can see my joy slowly returning. They can see happiness in my eyes again. When I first heard this I wasn’t sure how I felt about it. Of course it’s good to hear that you don’t look like your sad all the time… Continue reading Finding My Joy Again

July 29th, 2018 Have you ever felt as if the enemy just won’t give up? Do you often think when is this storm ever going to pass? When will all these things being thrown at me ever end? This past weekend we decided to attend a couples retreat for bereaved parents. We never ever thought… Continue reading 7/29/18 The Enemy

July 22nd, 2018 My sweet Aubrey, Your second birthday came and went. It was your first in heaven. I hope you had the best day ever. Mommy misses you terribly. I can only imagine what you would be like today. Would you be able to tolerate more feedings in your stomach? Would you be holding… Continue reading 7/22/18 Your First Birthday in Heaven

July 9th, 2018 Since the day Aubrey was born the doctors could never figure out what was wrong with her. My pregnancy was probably the easiest pregnancy one could ask for. I never got sick, I was able to do as much or as little as I wanted to, I even worked out all the… Continue reading 7/9/18 Answers

I can’t believe that it has been more than 6 months since we lost our sweet Aubrey. It seems just like yesterday that we got to bring her home from the NICU. Life is not the same without you. I walk this planet with a piece of my heart in heaven. I will never get… Continue reading 3/20/18 6 Months Later

It’s been a little while since I have written, longer than I normally go. I’ll be honest I have had a bit of a hard time deciding what to write about this past week. Sometimes I feel like my posts need to be about a situation that I have gone through or a struggle that… Continue reading 3/11/18 Smiles for Days

Last night after I posted the Flashbacks post and went to bed my mind just kept going. So I wanted to pick up where I left off and continue that post. Flashbacks, they can be a blessing and a curse. A blessing for the memories they bring but a curse also for the memories they… Continue reading 3/1/18 Flashbacks, continued

Wow today was one of those days. It actually didn’t seem that bad until I sat down to color in my coloring book (yes I love those adult coloring books, they are a great stress reliever) did it hit me. Not just today, but last night as well was a day full of flashbacks. As… Continue reading 2/28/18 Flashbacks