Last weekend, September 1st marked two years since Aubrey went to heaven. I found that the days leading up to that day were harder this year than the first. I have noticed myself feeling things I have never experienced before, one being not wanting to share my story. Ever since Aubrey went to heaven, I… Continue reading 2 Years
So the other day I went to a new gym with my friend to learn how to climb a rope. As many of you know I am training for a Spartan race and rope climbs are a part of that race. Anyway, as I was standing there talking with her trainer he asked me why… Continue reading Living When You Feel Out of Control
Wow…..that’s all I can say about the past two weeks, is wow. I have really been struggling with how much of the past couple of weeks to tell you all about, if any. My heart strings have really been pulled in so many directions. How vulnerable do I get with the world? How soon do… Continue reading This Crazy Life
For those that don’t know today in International Bereaved Mother’s Day. I’m not quite sure how I feel about having a day just for me. Do you tell each other Happy Bereaved Mother’s Day? How does one go about celebrating this day? Do you celebrate? Do you just ignore the day? I know that this… Continue reading I See You Momma
All of my family and friends know about my desire to run a spartan race. For the past 8 months or so I have been focusing on my health and getting myself back in shape. I have always been an athlete, I love competing. Ha I was at my friends, who I have literally known… Continue reading Love Yourself for Who You Are
Over the past two weeks I have been brought back more than once to the day Aubrey went to heaven and the days leading up to her celebration of life. I haven’t visited these days for awhile now, which I didn’t realize it had been so long, and it kind of caught me by surprise.… Continue reading Reliving the Days
After losing a child one thing I have noticed is that you think a lot about death. What it’s like, your feelings on death, where you’ll be after you die, a whole list of things. When walking into a room where someone is sleeping, the first thing I do is make sure they are breathing.… Continue reading It’s okay to die
This morning as I sat there pondering life. I came to realize how different a person I am now than who I was a year and a half ago. 18 months ago I was lost and confused, I didn’t have this strength inside of me, this strength that gets me up in the morning and… Continue reading Who Am I Now
The last few weeks I have been strongly thinking about if I am ready to go through Aubrey’s room. I have mainly been thinking of her clothes. I even went to the point a couple weeks ago to ask my best friend what size her baby girl was in so that if I was ready… Continue reading Timing
I am not one to do anything big without planning it in advance, especially any trip longer than one night. Last Friday life started getting to me, it slowly crept its way in. By Saturday I was ready to bail. I needed to get out, I needed to leave. These emotions that come with grief… Continue reading My Escape
Traveling through Grief 